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Name: Gabby
Birthday: 9/1/1989
Interests: I cannot live without some good music.
My taste in music has bounced around everywhere, and now I just try to like a little of everything
Expertise:
Having fun & hanging out with my friends & b/f.
Having Faith.
Watching TV.
Listening to Music.
Swimming.
Messing with computers
Occupation: Student
Industry: Medical
Message: message me
MSN: gabreann@hotmail.com
Member Since:
3/30/2004
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| Spring Break = next week!! WOOOO!! Although I have no awesome plans to go to the beach . . or anywhere . . . it is awesome to have a whole week off without anything I need to do . . . It sucks though b/c now everything is due Friday . . eghhh. Still excited, though.
I really need to spend this week studying and focusing on school. I say that and I hope that I will actually stick to it . . . My goal for this semester is all A's, but right now I'm having problems in two classes, one of which is for my major. Not cool. I'm hoping to bring it up, though, hence the studying all week. I still might get a B or so in gay math, but definitely NO C's!! I must bring my GPA up!! :[
My RA group process was today! I was a little bit nervous about it, but once I got there things went great. I'm truly surprised at how much I have come out of my shell. I am a lot more confident, I actually have a voice in groups . . . I'm proud of meeself :P It was so much fun! I met a lot of new people, and hopefully we will be stationed in the same buildings next year or something. YAY!! I think I am going to love it . . . if I get it. I'm feeling really good about it and it has put me in the best mood :D
It will be nice to be in a room by myself . . . my roommate is driving me bonkers I tell you!! She is nice and all, but we are just two totally . . not exactly complete opposite, but definitely not the same personalities. She is a single child, so she cannot be left alone (even though she has left me in my room for two whole weeks once, not that I am complaining), she doesn't pick up after herself, and she is very inconsiderate and on the verge of being downright rude. Its quite pitiful and I cannot wait to get out of here. Blehhh. Oh snap, her birthday is Friday . . . crappolllla!
Math test tomorrow = stress! I think I need to read a whole book for Literature by Friday night. On top of that, I have a Abnormal Psych test Friday over four chapters, which may not seem like a lot but it is actually seventeen printed pages of notes to write and go over and around 200 pages in my book to read. Yeah so . . . I better jump on it . . . | | |
| I have decided that I am going to dwell on the past no longer. I mean, really, what sense does it make? It cannot be changed, no matter how much I would like, I cannot go back, so what is the point of getting upset at myself each and every time it comes up?
Dwelling on the past distracts me from the future, and, more importantly, the NOW.
Seriously this time.
I have been praying about it a lot, and I finally read some different things that really helped me, and I shall be brought down no longer from my past mistakes and regrets. Although I know I could've done better, and I knew better, it is the past and that is where it should stay. I have learned from it, and I know that it happened for a reason and I had to go through that to be the person I am today
:)
I've been trying to read every night. It gives me strength. I need to start reading every morning to start my day off on a positive note, though. I enjoy my sleep so much though :(
I'm really trying to do better and shine my light. It is difficult, though. I've noticed that since I have decided to do better there has been even more temptation. . . very difficult.
My interview for the RA position next year was today!! It went really well, I think. Come to find out Brandi (my interviewer) told my RD that I did really well. That makes me happy. I'm not really worried about not getting it. If I do, thats great and I'll do my absolute best, if not, then it was just not meant to be, and that is fine with little ole me :] I wasn't even that nervous for the interview. I was pretty confident. I feel like I have finally started to really come out of my shell . . . hopefully I'll come out even more if I become an RA. We shall see!
-- I've been seriously considering meeting up with Sarah next time she comes in. I e-mailed her today just seeing how she has been, because I have been thinking about her. I hope she doesn't think it's because she has been communicating with A.
My only worries are that if we do meet, she will tell someone about it or she will tell someone (mostly A) what I wanted to talk to her about. This will take a lot of trust on my end to meet with her and confide in her. I just don't want to get screwed over again :S | | |
| ". . . Every time you casually have sexual relations with someone who you are not married to, a little bit of your soul dies in a way. You have given to a stranger something that is valuable and precious. You have allowed this person to steal your wealth, to take away your honor."
This is exactly why I feel so disgusted with myself. I don't want to say that I regret having sex because with regret you haven't learned anything, but I just wish I would not have had to learn that lesson but instead listened to what everyone was trying to tell me and teach me. I know that I cannot do anything to take back what I did no matter how much a wish I could, but I still haven't forgiven myself for it. It has gotten better over time, especially with Alex and his wise and comforting words, but it is still something I need to work on.
I feel like I have become distant with God and I do not like it. I'm going to start working on that. I want to go back to the great mood I was in a few days ago. :]
I just need to pray about everything and figure things out. | | |
| I just took this interest test on the job source website and these were my top 3 results:
Social
"the helpers" People in the social category prefer to work with others. They tend to be highly verbal, express themselves well, and get along well in groups. Social types typically prefer the team approach to problem solving. People in the social category often describe themselves as cooperative, friendly, and understanding. They generally enjoy teaching, caring for others, volunteering, mediating disputes, meeting new people, and working in groups.
Artistic
"the creators" People in the artistic category prefer to be expressive. They like the opportunity to create new things and be innovative. They typically do not like structure or conformity. They prefer to use their imagination and be creative. People in this category generally enjoy activities such as: writing, poetry, photography, designing, singing, acting, dancing, painting, attending theaters and exhibits, and reading.
Enterprising
"the persuaders" People in the enterprising category often prefer activities selling and promoting. They enjoy influencing others and being in a leadership position. They often use their skills to influence others. They often like competitive activities and are often self-confident, talkative and energetic. They generally enjoy discussing politics, selling and promoting, having power and status, giving talks and speeches, and leading groups.
The last one is odd and out there to me . . . speaking of self-confidence . . . I'm not feeling it at the moment.
Ever since last night I have been feeling very weird. I feel off and down. Grumpy. It's like I am bipolar or something. All day yesterday I was in the absolute best, upbeat mood, with nothing bothering me, then all of a sudden it turned.
I feel so crappy and just eghhhhh. I know that is not the best description, but I have no other way to explain.
I'm concerned about my relationship with Alex all of a sudden, and extremely paranoid about everything when it comes to him . . . I'm not sure where it is coming from really.
I'm not liking it.
I am also not liking that my roommate and her boyfriend at all but a teeny handful of my goldfish . . . thanks guys, you're great. . .
Grr.
P.S. This Gossip Girl show has me so lost . . am I feeling compelled to go rent the first and second season to figure things out? I'll have to think about it . . . :] | | |
| I am really hating how crappy the economy is right now. There are not enough jobs. It's terrible.
But I should have gotten a job last summer so that I would have been working steady up until now.
If only I would have pushed myself more to get a job.
While I am on the subject of if only and the things I should have done . . . .
I should have waited and done more shopping when it came to my vehicle. I was so excited just about getting one that I didn't wait long enough. My parents seemed all for it, which made me think that it would be alright, but I could've found a cheap used car for sale by the owner and get a better deal and possibly even a better car. Especially if I would have somehow made it up to today, where they are practically giving away cars.
Eeesh. I could not have managed without a car for that long, though. I'm sure of it.
I read that Murfreesboro, TN is one of the 100 best places to live (#84, actually), and the median home price here is $142,000. I could have put down on a house here and could be on my way to owning my own home!! That thought KILLS ME!
If ONLY I would have got on top of things earlier. What am I talking about, I'm still now not on top of things. How frustrating.
Rant of the week. Its only Sunday . . . maybe I should've saved this.
We'll see how things are at the end of the week :)
I would like to point out that I am very content right now (- still not having an income). This was just a thought I had run through my head.
Alex makes me so happy :] I don't think I've been this comfortable with anyone.
I love it.
I wish I could explain my feelings for him.
[Baby, I can see your Halo]
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